CONFESSION

Hi readers, i'm in a great disgraceful situation where i dnt find a proper place to hide my face due to failure of performing well in the entrance-exams. Everyone of my family n neighbors hoped me to excel n d exams n join a nice universities like IITs n NITs. But nothing so happened, even though i tried my best but couldnt work out with it properly.

Today i won't lie a single thing. After my so called grand succes in class 10th of 93.6 made me blind dat i can do wat ever i want. Ya this is true unless i work out properly. I was given oppertunities to do everything that i wasnt able in 10th class. From home i got a bike n mobile phones n in school responsibility of leader n along with that enjoying life with friends more. All the above were enjoyable but i never thought that these things will bring nightmares to my life which will last forever. Days past n i was floating in my dreams with expectations as my boat. Days passed inspite of poor results in 11th unit tests, i was in a hope to do well next time. But with this i completed my 11th class wit 67%. Then i decided not to go coaching centre n study at my own, but i was went to coaching inst bcz i was compel by my father; which later on helped me a lot. Due to the influence of my friends i got a habbit of eating outside stuff n enjoy it.

From the very begining of 12th class i worked harder with a hope that i can crack IIT-JEE or at least AIEEE. Then my hard work continues but unfortunately i was weak in 11th class so while appearing full exams conducted ny coaching institutes i wasn't able to score well n bcz of that i was losing my self confidence on my own ,which was the greatest mistake of mine. Now after losing self confidence wat ever i tried it all went opposite of my expectation. In mid october 2010 due to excessive eat i got ring worms in my stomach n which made me not to attend the whole 2nd preboard n made me ill for a month. With such long gap i wasn't able to study proficiently.

Later on while in d month of january 2011, i was in an ambigious situation bcz wen i go for coaching class i feel like, i should prepare for entrance exam which include 11th class n when i return home it made me feel like that i should prepare for board exam which includes only 12th course. With this in the end i was struck between two boats where one leg is on one boat n d other leg on d other ...

Finally within few months my expectation all fragmented like burnt paper ass n finally my life is totally sucked up. I myself is responsible for this.... With this i would like to say that never float on your small achievements because there are lots to conquer.

Goodbye

The Unspoken Truth of this World

Hi, friends many times, sorry its better to say thousands of times it so happens that we can't express our emotions n pain before any body; It also happens that even though its necessary to express but we don't, due to complexion within our mind. Sometimes we feel that a work seems to be good enough to do but sometimes we feel its not. It so happens due to instability of our mind. And this type of thinking leads us to downfall. Here are some unspoken truths of this world.

TRUTH No.1: Communicating skills matters more than knowledge

Let me tell you, those persons who are shy n they hardly express what they think suffers the most in this world. This world salutes those who have the capability to put their ideas before others in a presentable way. The days are gone when people with knowledge were rich n respectable, but now its the age of making people influence by your communicating skills. Let me give an example, one of my bro's friend who was studying in KIIT university didn't get a job after his completion of B-tech even though he got 9.1(=91%) in CGPI. He suffered because he was poor in communicating skills. Now this world demands your quick manipulation not the book work.

TRUTH NO.2: NO PLACE FOR HUMANITY

With the advancement of technology the term humanity is also being demolished my the machine like working humans. Now no one cares about the others, even if a neighbor dies out of gun fire but we pretend that nothing has happened. No one in this world wants to live for others rather to use them n throw them after work is complete, even if that person dies the predator human would come to his funeral for the free meal that would be provided.

Unlike earlier bollywood films a mother leaves her baby in the temple because she won't be able to nourish his due to poverty n some one else will adopt that child n make him grow, now days the person who finds a lonely child will pick him up n sell it for mere 1000s to the contractors who later on make that child as a laborer after some years or else sell his kidney n different other body parts.

I'm guess after few decades the word related to "HUMANITY" won't be there in the dictionary.


TRUTH 3: Love is all fake

Now there is a huge boom in the field of flirting n loving even in small towns of the developing countries, like India as well. It has gain the most popularity among the teenagers who thinks a simple attraction as true love but ultimately they didn't get any thing rather a sucked life where they have to fight for their survival.

Now days i guess people are having lots of sexual hormones, that why there is one physical contact in relations which hardly stays for 3 to 4 months n then a some one other. Many a time its happening that girls are holding up more than one boyfriends, each for a particular purpose.
recently in the local news channel it was there that a girl first marries with a boy n then after 6 months of marriage she takes away all the money n went away, after few days she again marries another guy n again looted n went away.

Currently love has become a business deal,Girl to the Boy: " If you love me then please buy me a gold ear ring n a necklace n ..." n ultimately some day that boy gets frustrated n leaves the girl n the girl commits suicide.

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Guys this much for now... bye

My 1st Month Completion of My Operation...

Hi friends, Today that is 2nd July 2011, I'm completing one month of my operation of PINODIAL SINUS. As general understanding sinus relates with head but in my case its some what more complicated because it was in the pinodial position of body. Pinodial position is just below of our spinal cord. So hence "Pinodial"+ "Sinus" makes it pinodial sinus. I would like to share my deadly experience with you all

Let me begin from start. I had been suffering from the very beginning day of this year. First i saw on 1st January 2011. It was my worst New Year gift ever. Let me tell You the symptoms of it, a small hole n from that due to infection, bleeding in that area. After check Up the doctors named it as "Pinodial Sinus". Then for the primary treatment I had to sit in the potassium permaganate warm water hoping that by doing this the gap would get fill up , but unfortunately it was useless. At last it was decided that "Surgery was the only means to cure it. Due to my forth coming exams I had to delay my operation for 4 months.

Then on 30th may i went for the check up in the KIIMS hospital which is 20 km far from my home. We had to go there because one of my uncle is Asst Professor there. I went to the OPD of surgery then a tall young doctor "Dr. Subrat kumar Sahu" examined my ass along with my uncle n finally decided to have my operation to have on 2nd June which was Thursday because according to Indian culture it is a holly day n a good day to start a work.

On 1st June i got admitted n i was in the males AC ward n a nurse came n gave me a pencilin injection for preventing any sort of infection while operation. then with due permition of the Doc we came back to home because there was no arrangement for my parents to stay. Next day we came early by 7 am n then a nurse came with a 8 cm long needle with a end hemispherical so as to attach the saline pipe. Then a 1l bottle hung n some liquid kept on dipping. On inquiring the nurse said that the needle is called"VEIN FLOW".

After 3 hours the time for my operation came. I walked to the operation theater with that ugly dress with no buttons rather only strings to get attach and after that the most painful moment came, the time to have the anesthesia in my spinal cord which almost feel like dying n few moment later i wasn't able to lift my leg or even move a little bit.

After 2 hours the operation was over then i was transferred came to my new cabin where there was private bathroom, AC, TV which fascinated me a lot. I used to have four injections daily, two in morn n two at night, and two tablets and i was also adjoint with a pipe which used to suck the secretion from my wound. Days past like a bullock cart because the only thing i was doing is to sleep or watch television. For eight days i was caged among the four walls. Friends and relatives came to see me n console me as well as I wasn't to stand or walk or sit.

On returning home i was welcomed by my elder bro who was there at home because he was suffering from malaria n had taken leave from his company. In every alternate day i go for dressing purpose n Now even on the completion of one month, i'm not completely recovered n go for dressing...

This is about the deadly experience with "PINODIAL SINUS". I hope no one suffers from this disease.